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Last Days Of Summer

"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... it has no survival value; rather, it is one of those things that give value to survival." ~C.S. Lewis

A quote by one of my favorite authors that made me think, can we live without having friends?

I guess, since, we weren't meant/made to be alone it would prove hard... but... would we survive?

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Ha, yes you will.

Trust me... been there and done/seen/experienced that.

Lost pretty much all my friends for a bit [got them back for a while, dunno when I'll lose them again]

and, I survived.

Painful, but I made it.

I made it to... today!

Still, not the point I was going for, look at the second part of the quote now,

"rather, it is one of those things that give value to survival."

it really, really does give value to life.

Loneliness is such a terrible feeling, nobody likes it.

I mean, it is fun to be alone sometimes, but, feeling lonely is no fun at all.

However, when you lose your friends, you are more aware of what they are worth and also, you realize that God can make a pretty good friend too.

When I lost my friends, I wished I had held them more, talked to them more, been there for them more, told them I loved them more, told them I missed them more... and the list goes on.

Often, when I am upset, I remember something some friend said and try to be happy again.

(Which means you should probably be there for your friend more often because if you lose them, when they are depressed, they may remember something simple and sweet you told them.)

Hold your friends, treasure them. NEVER take them for granted.

Love them, while you have them.

Love,

Joy.

Envision The Horizon.

Be A Friend.

*Swim* - Jack's Mannequin

It's like life said, "There, you're ready." and threw you in the deep side and your not sure you can swim...

Felt like that before?

Today was first day of school.

I am not use to this... it was horrible, it's just... my life feels so pointless for some reason.

Summer is over, my best friends are gone... I feel alone and just so... lost.

I knew it was all going to happen... I just wasn't sure what I'd do when it did... I still am uncertain.

Homeschooling may have been boring at times... but I never felt so... different?

Feels weird back at school. Plus, apparently I'm the class nerd.

I definitely don't feel ready for anything.

All I know is God knows what he's doing but it just makes me think:

When I was a kid, I didn't care.

Faith wasn't so hard... nothing really was... and now my faith and patience and strength is being tried to it's extent.

I'm scared... my friends are too far for encouragement.

One doesn't even care to talk to me anymore, the other one has her own problems, the other few wouldn't be entirely helpful since they're too far away to give me a hug.

Where is my life going?

I know, in a few weeks, I'll be fine and happy again, and perhaps adjusted... but I don't feel that way now.

Ever felt like this before?

Maybe this blog is for you to relate to me with.

“[For the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. According to Alamoth. A song.] God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.”- Psalm 46:1

Love,

Joy.

Envision The Horizon.

He is Near.

Joy is A Choice

So, in a week it will be the end of summer and the beginning of school. I will be going to a new school, so I am somewhat frightened, but we will see what happens. Also, I have to repeat 9th grade not because I failed academically, in fact, I did pretty well, but because they do not have a 10th grade and due to many, many reasons my parents believe this is THE BEST option.

I guess, I have to keep my head up and move forward cause there isn't any other way.

I can do it with a smile on my face, or, I can do it with a whole bagful of complaints, including the famous line 'I hate life.'

"You can't choose your circumstances, but you can choose your attitude." - Unknown (I'll look it up sometime.)

"...yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior." - Habakkuk 3:18

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." - Romans 12:12

"[ Trials and Temptations ] Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds..." James 1:2

Love,

Joy.

Envision The Horizon.

Choose Your Attitude.

Let This Go

"Maybe, if my heart stops beating,

it wont hurt this much
And never will I have to
answer again to anyone
Please don't get me wrong

Because i'll never let this go,
but i can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone..." - *Let This Go* ~Paramore

"What Is Love?"

Now I thought about blogging all the things that Love is but I decided to do it in parts so I can elaborate more.

"Love is Sacrificial."

I have learned that one over this last week.

It is when you have THE most perfect best friend in the world, and you realize that you have to give him up so he will be happy. (Long, complicated story) I tried everything imaginable to keep this friendship but in the end, only I would experience a small amount of happiness and that was just selfish.

Now for the great joy and freedom he will experience later, it is important that I sacrifice this amazing friendship now.

I am sure that there are many, many people that have had to sacrifice something amazing and much bigger than this, but if you have had to lose a best friend, you would know how I feel.

Now, he was not just any best friend, he was the best. A friend I had prayed for since I was a little kid.

“Nothing that you have not given away will ever be really yours.” -C. S. Lewis

That being said, Love is not self-seeking (selfish) and it is sacrificial.

No matter how much pain and misery this will cause you, you should do what will make the other person happy, and with that in mind, you, yourself will experience joy.

I am going to miss you, but if I don't let you go, I never really loved you.

Do not be selfish.

Love,

Joy.

Envision The Horizon.

Love is sacrificial.